it’s mild, but just out of no where, it kinda hit me.
and speaking of depression, the one i have now was triggered originally by me finding out i was losing my job. uncertainty has ensured it remains with me to this very day (though hopefully things will be more mild now that i’m on medicine). i prefer the security of routine, with a steady job. if you take that away from me, it upsets me, especially when i had no safety net like i did when i was laid off from the factory job.
if a plan is made and then changed, that can upset me (and has). if i can’t have my noodles due to no fault of my own, that can upset me. if i feel like i’m being ignored, i will get upset almost every time (and considering i’m terrible at figuring out how people are feeling, this is a really bad thing).
maybe if i can see someone, i can find out why all of this stuff happens. and then maybe find ways of dealing with it. at least i try to change how i do things with b-man. i don’t do it all the time (if i’m upset, i won’t remember), but if i do remember, instead of saying, “i’m sorry if i upset you” i’ll say, “i feel like what i did would upset you, so i wanted to apologize.” it’s not great, but it’s a start.
anyway, gonna eat my food and go back to my game. i feel better when i’m playing it.
i agree with you fully on this post. DA2 is better than DAO in my opinion just because most quests aren’t as tedious as the first game.
I also like how they did companion gear. Makes it a little easier to switch between them, though I still have only been sticking with three. I figure I’ll try others in future playthroughs. :)
And some of the side quests aren’t that fun, but most of them range from okay to awesome, so it’s all good. Everything can’t be awesome all the time. :)
And is there any characters in DAO as awesome as Varric? The mission in the house with his brother is hilarious for the first part. :)
The Fade in DAO ruined my enjoyment of the game. Was liking it until I got stuck in it and hated it after that. Poorly designed. :-/
The Fade in DA2 was pretty awesome. I took Fenris, Anders (who apparently was pissed I did that), and Varric. Finished it with Anders and Varric. Quest was waaaaaaay more fun than doing the Fade in DAO.
People bitch about this game, but the side quests can be pretty cool and the game play is loads better than DAO. Doesn’t feel as epic as DAO, due to the things removed (different playable races and origin stories, plus only one major city), but I’ve played plenty of worse games than this. It’s fine, IMHO.
The medicines are releasing Heavy metals into your body which are more than likely causing depression and you could be experiencing some random memory issues too and possible dementia.
Basically saying I should try to stop taking my medicine, which is not a good idea at this point. I also had to explain that I can not make big sweeping changes in my life or it overwhelms and upsets me (which is why I got depressed in the first place, because of a big change in my life and the fact that I have never solved that change). So basically I explained I have to start small. What I didn’t say is start small or I don’t start at all. Can’t help it. This is how I am. Makes the deal take longer, but too much change upsets me.
Also, I wasn’t on medicine when I got depressed…
Thing is, I knew the anti-depressants were giving me memory issues. I’ve had them since I started to take them. I also am aware that the medicine I’m taking now is giving me cognitive issues (hence why my posts are more likely to have typos that I missed). I made a point that while I don’t want to keep taking them, to take me off of my medicine now would be very dangerous to me personally, so I will not stop taking them until other things have been cleared up.
Also, while I think the things suggested in that email could work to make me healthier, there is the issue that I may have another mental issue atop my depression that this will not fix, that I’ve had my entire life, since I was born. I have a growing suspicion that I have more wrong with me than just depression, hence why I’d like to get in and see someone. I want to talk to them (or just write things out) that I go through and see if they add up to something or if they’re all random things that don’t mean a bigger picture. I’d actually rather not even tell them my suspicion until after I tell them the things from my life, to avoid any possible bias.
Either way, I’m curious about what the email talked about, but it’s change, thus something I would have a hard time incorporating into my life, but we’ll see.
Now with more cuddling.
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got my six bucks and i kinda wonder if i might not get a 2 buck bonus later. that could help on a rainy day :)
my finger is so bad that if i use it for just a little bit, it ends up hurting me a lot. FTS. :(
http://www.amazon.com/Pocket-Quartz-Wheeler-Vintage-Numerals/dp/B0075VTSC8
i have this, except mine is silver. Worked maybe a week or so after I got it. Stopped. Was from Wal-Mart (which should have been my first clue not to buy the thing). Didn’t bother taking it back, but now I’d like to see why it doesn’t work. How do you take these apart? I’d like to make it work again and I think it’s battery operated, but dunno how you get it open.
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